Welcome to my Pity Party.
Here I am at almost 47. Pretty much all of my dreams of being successful at something have vanished. I was going to be an artist. I don’t even like to draw now. I was going to be a musician. I was even offered a music scholarship but didn’t go to college. I never play anymore. Don’t feel the desire to do that either. Even when I’ve been in the presence of greatness, I’ve always made an ass of myself. I’m not even a good wife. Can’t cook. I’m a slob and detest cleaning. I bitch constantly about one thing or another. That’s one thing I’m definitely proficient at. Oh, and I’m good at numbing myself with barley and hops. What is it with me, anyway?
I was so proud of myself for escaping out of the so-called security of a dead-end job after a quarter of a century of my life had been wasted there by deciding to become a Medical Transcriptionist, only to find out after my first year that my pay would be cut in half and I would be relegated to being a voice recognition editor. Pride always comes before a fall.
I give up.
If you read this, I apologize. It’s not like me to whine in public. I usually reserve that for my private life.
Page 43 – Crosby and Nash
Lyrics: David Crosby
Look around again
It’s the same old story
You see, it’s got to be
It says right here on page 43
That you should grab a hold of it
Else you’ll find
It’s passed you by
Rainbows all around
Can you find the silver and gold?
It’ll make you old
The river can be hot or cold
And you should dive right into it
Else you’ll find
It’s passed you by
Pass it round one more time
I think I’ll have a swallow of wine
Life is fine
Even with the ups and downs
And you should have a sip of it
Else you’ll find
It’s passed you by.
![[x]](http://rogersgardengate.com/wpblog/wp-content/themes/mad-meg/images/rss.png "Syndicate this site using RSS")
Hey, where did this come from? Pick yourself up and hold your head up. Not successful? Bull****. Look at how many people you touch on a daily basis with your wonderful work on your sites. Look at how many people love you. You have your health, even if you can’t see worth a damn. lol. I can’t either. Since when are cooking and cleaning requirements to being a good wife? Start drawing. I want to see your work. Start playing piano again. I want to hear you. Get off your butt and get busy. Linda XXOO
Yeah Kathy, what Linda said. All of it!! I perfectly know where you’re coming from, because from time to time I feel the same. But in the end I always manage to convince myself of what I’m worth. And if I think about it, your worth is much higher than mine LOL!
Luv you – and many others do, too!! *hugs* xxx
Kathy, I totally agree with Linda and Sabine – you are such a wonderful person, so no need to be so hard to yourself!!! We love you and you should start loving yourself too!!
Kathy: I agree with Claudia, Sabine, and Linda. You are such a wonderful person. I myself totally know what you are going through. There are times in my own life when I have been in your situation. Remember to pick yourself up and surround yourself with people who make you feel special and appreciate you. I know I appreciate you and all that you do especially with your websites. They are amazing! I also feel that you are a great “cyber” friend as well. Take care.
Love you, girl!!